Today I am 1400 days clean and serene, that is, drug free, alcohol free and free to make choices that will only benefit my life. In just over 2 months time I’ll be 4 years clean but I don’t look too far in advance. I take it day by day and live “just for today”.
My daily life isn’t without it’s struggles still. The disease that is addiction is still in my mind, 24 hours a day but I choose not to entertain it. Sometimes I think nothing would give me greater pleasure than to have a cone or throw back a cold beer on one of these hot days we’ve been having but I think about it, process it, deal with it and move on. I’ve been living for 1400 days without it and have proven to myself I don’t need those things. In fact, my life is as good as it’s ever been without marijuana and alcohol.
I’m forever grateful for the fantastic people at the rehab and NA for teaching me the 12 Steps of Recovery and how to get over my addiction. If I hadn’t have taken that first step to recovery, I’m not sure where I’d be now. Probably very sad, very broke, very angry and very stoned, still in the same living hell I lived in for 16 years.
When I get through one day, clean and sober, it’s a blessing. To recognise a big number like ‘1400 days’ is a huge deal for me and I’m feeling pretty stoked today.
Don’t forget, if you’re struggling with an addiction of any kind, seek help. Help is always available and organisations are only too willing to help show you a better way of life. It is out there. Here’s to today!
Just for Today
 
Just for today my thoughts will be on my recovery, living and enjoying life
without the use of drugs.
Just for today I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me
and wants to help me in my recovery.
Just for today I will have a program. I will try to follow it to the best of my ability.
Just for today, through NA, I will try to get a better perspective on my life.
Just for today I will be unafraid, my thoughts will be on my new associations,
people who are not using and who have found a new way of life.
So long as I follow that way, I have nothing to fear.